sunday morning i got ready for church and somehow it took me 30 min too long to find pants that fit. i got to church late and near tears as this was just about the first time i'd ever had this issue to the extent of that morning. monday, i went on a "fat pants" shopping trip and got one pair of dress pants to help me through the transition period until this balances out.
earlier this week i announced to the five people in my office that i'm on a diet. they all chuckled with jealousy knowing i can usually inhale anything i want and not gain a pound (including brownies for a 9 am snack). they also expressed a hint of doubt that i can do this. rightfully so because this sucks. how do i learn to diet at 26? and what do i do with the my desk drawer of sweets?
don't get me wrong, i love veggies and healthy food but everything needs dessert right?
i took this nice frozen mean to work today thinking since it looked good i would not be tempted to go out and get a meal somewhere else that would likely be larger than portion size. well, it didn't work. when it was done, i said "was that an adult portion?" the guy around the corner from my desk laughed and said i might want to bring 2 next time.
my overly reflective personality is pondering the word portion tonight. i just picked up my Bible from the floor by my desk and looked for a verse that i remember memorizing at one time.
my flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
psalm 73:26
i'm not sure i do a good job of realizing God is my portion. i think i fly through my time in the word and then go look for dessert elsewhere. ok, poor analogy, sorry. but really, do i know in my deepest being that God is my portion? enough, everything, all i need? i want to know this more and deeper and live it to the fullest. i want to enjoy him as my greatest desire at all times and be satisfied in him.
today i can be thankful for health and provision and a God who is my strength and portion forever.
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