laminin

do i have any readers still?

i've had such a season of activity that i've been too exhausted to write and never know where to start or what is blog appropriate or if anyone cares.

i'm getting back on the train and giving this a shot again. i hope somehow it makes much of Him.

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in the last month, i've read colossians 1 over and over. God led me to this passage the week before i was to start training our first short-term team to Kenya and yet the country of Kenya had just erupted into post-election ethnic tension and violence. God really impressed on my heart verses 15-23 which i shared with the team.

this week i started observing lent for the first time. it's really silly to even call it that because i didn't give anything up or get ashes on my forehead and i ate meat today (friday)...but between me and God because of the stirring in my heart, i've decided to focus on Christ in a new way during this lenten season.

one of my lent commitments is to memorize a verse every day. yesterday was colossians 1:17, "and he is before all things, and in him all things hold together."

i've been applying this exclusively to our Kenya plans for some small minded reason. yet, today it hit me like the headache i've had all week that Christ was before a doctor appointment I had today and in Him alone does my life and being hold together. you see, i have a dent in my head. go figure. a week ago it showed up like i'd been hit in the back of the head and the dent never bounced back. i've been a little freaked actually. i mean i'm 26 years old and i've already had back surgery, killed my thyroid and a half dozen minor medical and dental issues. why another? why me? why more doctor bills? the answer to that is that the world is fallen and so am i. the answer to that answer is that "he is before all things, and in him all things hold together."

last year i went to the louie giglio, chris tomlin & matt redman concert. louie talked about some of his signature points like the galaxies and the bigness and greatness of God. but he shared something else that stuck with me really deep. we all have this protein molecule in our dna. it's the one and only thing holding our body together. it's called laminin and literally holds our physical being together. the cool part that i don't think is an accident- the molecule is in the shape of the cross... "in him all things hold together"

today leaving the doc to learn this dent is not normal and i need to have a scan to look into it, i rested knowing that He is before me and holding me and my life together AS he wants it. nothing profound, just a realization that small minded me is in the arms of really BIG God.

by the way, type in laminin on google images and see what you get. it's cool.
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other than that, life is crazy busy. i'll try to start blogging more often.